Mister, I certainly do not believe you exist. (hey, this is not a bitter post.) The reason why I am writing to you right now is for the benefit of those who still believe in you. For one thing mister, why are you searing your arrows on humans? You are such a violent creature. The people you fool now stay in a stupid state of heart. Do you really believe that with the first sight, one can fall in love already? Your thinking is very shallow.

 Is the physical appearance always matters? What about the heart, the soul? Is it not more necessary to look there, as it has always been the reason why we exist? And you are such a vulgar fellow, wearing only that red underwear.

Let me tell you, love is not about suffering. Yes, it is synonymous to sacrifice, but it doesn’t mean suffering. Love is not something you curse because it had hurt you. No one has the ability to hurt you but yourself. Love is experiencing joy, fullness. It is meant to let you grow.

You would always tell us to understand the people we love. Yes maybe, but understanding comes later. It is acceptance that comes first. And may I tell you, true love is built on friendship. The love you are offering is short-term.  That’s why people go their ways, breaking hearts.

I hope you’ll be gone soon. You know, my God is offering His love for all people. He loves me, as if I am the only one He love. By the way, God is not just the God of love. He is Love Himself. Get lost, Cupid.

Hi “the one.”

Kamusta ka naman? I hope everything’s fine. I know how busy you are with your life now. Wala na akong update sa’yo. Pero sana lang matapos mong basahin tong letter na to, if it’s not too much to ask ha?

You know how much I love you. Kaya nga naghihintay pa rin ako sa’yo. I am giving you my 100%. Because I know that is what love is asking. You need to give your all. No buts, No whys. 

Kahit ang magmukhang tanga sa paghihintay. To tell you, what I am doing right now is very uncomfortable. This is not me. Ako yung taong hindi marunong maghintay, walang pasensya. Looking at myself now, I knew I changed.

Kapag pala nagmamahal ka, natututo ka talagang maghintay. Automatic na lang yun, kahit mamatay matay ka na kasi hindi mo alam kung babalikan ka pa.

I knew it. This love is not a game. Hindi to parang insurance company. Kapag nagbigay ka, may babalik sa’yo. It’s not something you gain, it is something you give. 

Alam ko, inip na inip ka ng basahin to. Kaya tatapusin ko na. Oo nga pala, I love you. I am waiting for you.

Para kay Chummy, my soul sister. :) Kakainspire ang iyong love story. 

Waiting is a time for God to be God.

Life is what we make it. 

CUTE! parang ako lang. Children are the simplest and most genuine kind of joy. :)

(via twoheartsforlove)

Last night I told myself I would study, and never give in to the temptation of sleeping. This morning, I found myself waking up from a deep slumber. OHMAAAAAYYYYY!

Ang Finals, BOW.

So if you didn’t get the logic of my poem, so be it. :)

sige na nga, i’ll explain for people whose IQ is similar with mine. Actually hindi ko rin talaga magets yan. ewan. pumasok na lang bigla sa isip ko. hihihi. 

Just like the “bow” at the end of my poem, Final exams will come to an end too. hindi ko alam kung pampalubag loob ko lang to dahil hindi ako nagaral kagabi. But I think pwede rin syang mai-process. All things come, for them to pass away. 

so para sa mga katulad kong nakatulog at hindi pa nagaaral, matatapos din ang finals. so the best thing to do is to study. and do our best to pass it. well, to get high scores pala. dadaan lang naman yan, as all things do, so why not try putting our best dress for this visitor? 

Nalungkot ako bigla. kakarelate. :(

(via prettylittlepinkbutterflies)

With God. 

(via twoheartsforlove)

I suddenly remember last Friday’s scene at Mcdo Bayan in Lipa. I saw this “bebe” (This is my pet name for all my younger sisters in YFC.) crying all over with her girl friends in front of the rest room. I was of course worried about what happened as I impulsively hug her. 

ako: o? bat ka umiiyak?

bebe1: (suminghot at umiyak lalo)

bebe2: eh ate ez, gawa po ng boypren. 

bebe3: ate, bespren pa po eh! bespren pa!

ako: bespren ang… ??? (low tech mode) 

bebe1: ate, bakit kasi sa bespren ko pa? (umiyak ulit)

ako: ahhhh. bespren ang third party?

bebe1,2,3: opooooo!

Atlas! it dawned to me why. haha. I guess I’m a bit slow when it comes to this kind of topic. And so, after some tapping-of-backs and hugging some more, I insisted they should all go home and rest. I began to wonder what it is that is more painful, the infidelity of a boyfriend? or the betrayal of a best friend? And because I cannot still comprehend this kind of things, I chose to set it aside for awhile. Just now, I realized how I’ve been foolish to compare which is more painful. And that I’ve been looking at the wrong side again. Whenever we are in pain because of a betrayal or an infidelity, what we really assess is how much pain did it cause. Then we start to self-pity and curse those who fooled us. This process makes healing impossible.

So? What’s the best thing to do after such a heart break? 

No. Don’t worry. I will not recommend the “move on” thing. It’s an old school advice that usually do not make things right.

I’ll recommend another. The “grow up” one.

Allow yourself to just feel the pain. Get angry! Hey, we’re humans here. We’re not dogs that do not care about faithfulness and emotions and love. Do not ask why they did what they did. Acknowledge that you’ve been hurt. It’ll be the first step.

May I just remind you that being angry for a long time is not helpful too. It’s like you’ve cut yourself and “yeah, i know I’ve cut myself” then you just stare at the wound and not do anything about it. It will kill you.

Of course you have to get some Band-aid or anything that will heal it. 

That’s why we are provided (BY GOD, who else?) with friends. Friends that are true. Seek help from someone you know will listen and understand.

Pray. My brother/sister. It’s the most important part. This starts your Growing up.

Pain is inevitable. It is something we can’t control. We would always find ourselves in pain in almost every aspect of our lives. There is relational pain where we would get the deepest bruises from people we love. The internal pain we would get from the insecurities, shame and disappointments we feel. And of course the physical pain, where we feel most vulnerable. There is also this “ultimate pain” where we would feel abandoned by the God whom we put our full trust and love. Through it all, God tells us not to fear these. He tells us to embrace our everyday pain. Because He knows that it is only through hurting can we experience how lovely it is to dwell in Him. To ask Him to embrace us. Kiss us. He understands fully well how it is to be in pain. Remember how Jesus get through relational, internal, physical and ultimate pain to the extreme level? With His passion and death, we can always find a soothing place when we choose to lay down all our pain and wounds. It is only with God we can find ourselves understood. And above all, loved.With that, may God be praised. 

true. :)